Whole30: Day 5 -- Am I DOING This Right?!

Hi. Another day down in the Whole30 books. I've got to say, I'm wondering if I am doing this right.

Everything I've read, from the creators of Whole30 and people who've done it before, is saying that right now I should be cranky and pretty miserable. I feel... nothing. I mean, I feel like I always do. I'm tired, I don't have a lot of energy, and my -ahem- digestion is a little off.

I had one bad day, Monday, while I was detoxing from caffeine. I've been drinking an insane amount of water since then (although admittedly less today than earlier this week) but I'm no more refreshed than I usually am.

It worries me, frankly. Am I doing this wrong? Am I some weird breed of person who doesn't have terrible reactions to grains and dairy and I'm just fat and miserable for no good reason? What happens if nothing changes between now and the end of Whole30? Do I keep going? Do I try something else? Do I throw in the towel and resign myself to a life of obesity and meh-ness?

I'm staying positive, and not like, tempted to cheat or anything, but this is definitely weighing on me (no pun intended). I hope something changes soon. I hate feeling like this is useless.

In other news, the restaurant for our staff outing was picked. Unfortunately, it was not the restaurant I was hoping for. I'm nervous. (Duh, have you met me? A stiff wind makes me nervous.) To add to the nerves, a couple of our best long-distance friends are in town Monday and we are meeting up with them for dinner. Out. Which I'm excited about because I haven't seen them in a ridiculous amount of time, but it means eating out twice in a day. Ack. Ack, ack, ack. I really don't want to sabotage this. I don't want to fuck this up. I fuck everything up. Not this time. I have to get this right.

Okay, enough beating myself up for today.

Tomorrow is Friday, which is the day that I work from home. Surviving tomorrow is going to be HUGE, because my ritual has been that I work until 1:30, and then go out to get myself lunch (which is typically followed by speed-racing to one of a variety of doctor appointments, but I digress). Usually lunch is something fast-foody, so eating at home yet not relegating myself to stay inside all afternoon will be a challenge. On a random note, out of curiosity I looked into the ingredient information for Chick-Fil-A's grilled chicken. Admittedly, Chick-Fil-A has typically been my Friday lunch of choice, and while I have no intentions of going there, I was curious to see what exactly is in their food and if ANY of it was W30 friendly. You'd think that at the very least, the grilled chicken salad would be alright, right (without the dressing)? You'd be wrong. They pump their chicken full of so much shit... sugar and oil and bullshit... It's a miracle they still call it chicken. Okay, I'm not going to pretend that I'm on some sort of high horse because you know what, I still think Chick-Fil-A is delicious, dammit, but it's a real eye opener (though not exactly a surprise) that even food billed as the healthier choice is still nasty crap. Similarly, Subway's lunch meat is pumped full of so much crap that I'm pretty sure they can only call it meat if they use quotation marks. Depressing.

Anyway.

What I Ate: 
Breakfast: Two hard-boiled eggs, an orange, and a handful of walnuts.

Lunch: leftovers of last night's yummy tacoburgersaladdeliciousness. Mmmmm. Plus, a handful each of cucumber slices, cherry tomatoes, and baby carrots.

Dinner: The meat sauce we made on Sunday served on zucchini noodles. Derek was not a huge fan, I didn't hate it but it's not going on any favorites list. Zucchini noodles don't taste bad but the texture is a little offputting. I guess it's just cuz I'm still expecting conventional pasta. All in all it wasn't bad. Would've been better with a side of garlic bread. ;)

How I Feel: 

Like I said... I feel... fine? Nothing remarkable to report. Is it weird I'm a little upset that I'm not biting people's heads off? I guess I am just eagerly awaiting some kind of proof that we made the right choice going into this. I know 5 days is early and we still have a long ways to go, I'm just... eager. Anxious. And impatient as a motherfucker.

Anyway. On to the next one!